Chemical Shovel To The Back Of The Head
Posted by Will Lunn
3rd Jun 2015

A Chemical Shovel To The Back Of The Head

Have you ever been forcefully hit around the back of the head with a shovel? Now I am not talking about some flimsy cheap shovel bought in a discount store. I mean a proper hefty handmade shovel with some substantial heft to it.

No neither have I but I am prepared to bet it leaves you feeling roughly similar as taking the new addition to my daily medication cocktail added by the GP yesterday. Now I am sure there will be old hands out there who have been on this medication for years and wondering what all the fuss is about but I can only give an account of how it affected me.

Quetiapine (/kwɨˈtaɪ.əpiːn/ kwi-TY-ə-peen) (developed and marketed as Seroquel by AstraZeneca
Use for major depressive disorder
Quetiapine is effective when used by itself[16] and when used along with other medications in major depressive disorder (MDD).[16][17] However, sedation is often an undesirable side effect.[16

Above is the information provided on Wikipedia about the drug Quetiapine marketed under the brand name Seroquel. Written in that coldly factual way which the pharmaceutical world and the Psychiatric profession use in an attempt to transform the untidily erratic and emotional world of mental illness into something which can be intellectualised and categorised.

What this reductive language really does is achieve some of the most comical and colossal understatements known to mankind. When it says sedation is often an undesirable side effect you are looking at an understatement somewhere along the lines of saying if you drank a bottle of 12 year-old Macalan single malt whisky in one go you might be a little unsteady on your feet and heading towards being slightly tipsy.

I can only describe the feeling inside my brain along the lines of a mechanic draining an engine of clean high performance oil which obviously perfectly lubricates the moving parts of the engine and filling it up with some sludge found in an old oil can lying at the back of the shed. The moving parts are slowed right down by the sludge until the engine is barely able to tick over. Your brain filled with the pharmaceutical sludge leaving thoughts as slow deliberate processes .hungry-eat, tired-sleep and so on. A basic ticking over.

The very obvious question is why take something which will do this to your brain? For me that slowing down of my thought processes will hopefully keep me safe from myself. Substituting the normal omnipresent critical narrative with a numbness which prevents the rather more exotic thoughts such as suicide forming and taking a dangerous hold.

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